My Life

2009-02-05T15:57:00.002+08:00

sorry for not blogging for a very long time.
been feeling fcuked up and pissed off for the past few days.
not about girl dis time.
but BROTHERS.
gosh. i dunno wats gonna happen next.
all this SHIITS been going on and on.
cant take it anymore.
feel like venting my anger on someone. especially THEM.

the first thing happened was my childhood friend, like a BROTHER to me, stabbed me from the back by breaking his promises.
like wtf. 10 years somemore.
been thinking and thinking. ive decided to stop contacting him.
to me, promise is a promise. its like giving a huge responsibility to someone.
i trust him but in the end he broke it.
not only he broke my trust. but also the respect i have for him.
and bcuz of tat, ive decided to break our brotherhood.
u wanna noe the caused of it??
well, i dont wanna elaborate it anymore.

another thing happened too.
this time im going to tell u his name. AZMIL!
like wtf. he's someone who is really a two-headed snake MOFO!
like's to talk COCK! can win the WORLD CUP sia!
he's someone who takes someone's kindness for granted!
the TWO-HEADED SNAKE part - he talks bad about someone in front of me. but behind my back, he talks bad about me.
the talk COCK part - he said he wanted to buy KR last year november. november has past, he told me december. den he dragged till january. and now february ready. i advised him to collect his money and spend wisely so he can achieve his dream. but he dont wanna listen. U DESERVE IT ARSE-HOLE!! like my friend said, "tak mampu nk belik, jgn belik ar."
the taking someone's kindness for granted - bcuz of him not getting his bike sooner or later, whenever me and my friends went out, i'll pillion him. so that everyone can enjoy together u see and obviously, SYMPATHY. but now wtf! after hearing his words from my friend, seriously i feel like punching his face sia. jgn sampai aku hilang sabar. aku hilang sabar, dunia kau gelap nanti.

seriously ar. FCUK OFF!!

2009-01-20T23:56:00.004+08:00

bored for the past 2 days.
sitting at home doing nth.
gosh. i need to find work man.
my wallet's running thin.
dah dapat duit, ape lagi. JOLLY AR BEB!!
prangai kentot sakz Kai. haha.
i cant wait for another month.
gonna take class 2a! wee~
super 4 spec III here i come!
ride with style baby, ride with style. *winkz*
olritez. gonna go out now.
toodles readers~~ ((=

2009-01-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

Say Goodbye To 2008.
& Welcome. . .
2009!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

Wishing everyone will have a great year ahead.
Forget the past and move on.
Don't ever turn back. =D

As for me, I hope 2009 is gonna be a better year for me.
2008 was like hell. LOL!
Well, my only wish for this year is to have a gf.
And ya, I've found the girl that really captures my heart, can make me smile and happy.
But. . . I don't know whether she will accept me.
Hmmm. I'll just hope and pray that she will. =)

P.S : "I Only Want The Girl Named Farlia." =)

2008-12-31T23:46:00.000+08:00

The Loneliness - Babyface

Im sitting here thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again

I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

Farlia,
I'm sorry for what I've said to you.
I know my words were harsh.
I'm really really sorry.
I really can't live without you.
Whenever I'm doing something, I kept thinking of you.
I just can't get you out of my head, Lia.
You are the only one who can make me smile, laugh and even cry.
I just don't wanna lose you.
I've promised you that I will love you and will never leave you.
I still kept to that promise.
All I wanted was you and your love.
My heart's still with you Lia.
I swear to God and everyone that my love for you is strong.
I Love You, Farlia.

2008-12-30T07:20:00.003+08:00

went riding this morning.
gosh. we didnt have a plan at all.
every one was blurr, blank and whatever words u can describe.
so we think hard and finally agreed to chill near Singapore Flyers.
since we didnt go there often. haha.
chill till 4am and went back to telok blangah.
and continue chilling till 6am.
no life ritez? of cuz la.
late nitez, early morning, what can you possibly do man??
everywhere we go was like a ghost town.
ya. maybe one day, we can make friends with ghosts.
well, it was meant to be a sarcastic remarks.
okie. when we were on the way home, i NEARLY met with an ACCIDENT!
sorry to use harsh words. but its really driving me MAD.
effing taxi driver, dont even know how to drive.
how can you possibly pass your TRAFFIC POLICE TEST???
don't you know you need to keep a safe distance of at least 1 car gap??
you were tailgating me, i'm changing my lane and you were impatient and overtake me.
and you almost COST MY LIFE!!! bloody hell!!
if MINOR ACCIDENT is okie, at least i can claim for the damages you've caused.
but what if its a MAJOR ACCIDENT and took away someone's life??
not one but two lives. TWO LIVES GOD DAMN IT!!
its priceless you know. it can't even be bought.
for goodness sake, use your GOD DAMN brain god has given to you.
to all road users out there, if you are in a hurry and rushing for time, please drive safely.
if you dont care about your life, at least think for others.
don't tend to regret if something happened.
i don't wanna lose someone closed to me again.
its really heartbreaking you know.
its not temporary but permanently gone.
he didnt have the chance to live long. he was only 19.
there's more for him to learn and explore.
he met an accident because of a reckless driver driving a van.
and he died on the spot.
do you want that to happen in your life??
i hope this will talk some sense into you guys.
and to all road users, especially taxi drivers.

2008-12-29T15:02:00.002+08:00

its been said and done.
u left me cold and alone out here.
and ur having fun outside.
u never will and never did appreciate what ive given you.
thanx for the drama and the games you played.
i thought ive finally can love and be loved.
but i was wrong again and again.
u destroyed the hopes and confidence within me.
thanx alot aitez. haiz.
ive gained nothing in the end.
emptiness filled me again.
gosh. 2008 is not my year.
and i dun tink 2009 will be a better year for me either.
oh man. well. i just gotta be strong.
i noe im really weak. someone please guide me. (:

2008-11-10T23:04:00.003+08:00

You never fail to make me smile,
cheer me up when I'm down,
keeping me company every night.

You Know Who You Are. =) This Poem Is For You.

When I'm With You,
Eternity Is A Step Away,
My Love Continues To Grow,
With Each Passing Day.

This Treasure Of Love,
I Cherish Within My Soul,
How Much I Love You,
You'll Never Really Know.

You Bring A Joy To My Heart,
I've Never Felt Before,
With Each Touch Of Your Hand,
I Love You More And More.

Whenever We Say Goodbye,
Whenever We Part,
Know I Hold You Dearly,
Deep Inside My Heart.

So These Seven Words,
I Pray You Hold Through,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

Farlia,
I promise, I'll never break your heart. I won't make you cry. I may not be the best but i will do my best just for you. I'll cherish every moment I had with you. I'll treasure you more than anyone else do. I'll be there for you when you need me the most. I promise that I'll fulfill every promises I've given you. I just want you to know how much I love you. For once, please believe me.

2008-11-10T22:37:00.003+08:00

"You"

You Were There To Light My Day
You Were There To Guide Me Through
When Our Days Were Down And Up
I'll Never Stop Thinking Of You.
How Can I Forget All That
When You're The One Who Makes Me Smile
You'll Always Be A Part Of Me
How I Wish You Were Still Mine.

Never Will Forget The Day
How We've Met And Gained This Far
Even Though We Had This Feeling
But Somehow It Has To End Up Here.
You Know Its Me Who Said Goodbye
And That's The Hardest Thing To Do
Cause You Mean So Much To Me
And Thats The Truth From Me To You.

For All The Things That's Done And Said
For All The Hurt That I've Caused You
I Hope You Will Forgive Me Baby

Cause That Wasn't What I Meant To Do.

This song was given by Farlia. Its really nice. Should listen to it. =)
I don't know the composer and the original singer for this song. But credits to him for composing such a beautiful song and the lyrics were meaningful.
I was thinking of doing a cover for this song. Maybe soon. Will be uploading the video soon after I've recorded it.

Berulang Kali Hati Ku Dilukai.

2008-10-15T23:30:00.003+08:00

Thanx Alot Ar!! After Reading Ur BLOG, Now I Know.
U Used Me Just To Make Him Jealous.
U Said U Didnt Give High Hopes. Then What Does This Sentence Means??
"I Like You, And The LOVE Will Come One Day."
That's Already Giving High Hopes For God's Sake.
Now I Noe Why U Keep Avoiding Me All This While.
Haiz. Thanx Alot Ar.
Night Of Raya, U Msged Me Saying All Those Heartbreaking Stuff.
Asal Mesti Malam Raye Sakz?? Haiz.
Now I Noe Ur True Colour After Reading Ur Blog Ar.
*How Many Times Must I Get Hurt??*
F**k La. Thanx Ar.
Now I Dont Know How To Face Ur Mum Anymore.
Klau Azmil, Dan & Raz Nak Gi Ur Huze Just To See Mamy, I'll Back Off.
Cuz I Don't Wanna See Ur Face!!
KO DAH LUDAH MUKE AKU SKRG. JGN HARAP KO DAPAT JILAT BALIK BILER KO DAH MENYESAL NANTI.

I Hold On Just To Be With You. In The End, This Is What I Get. Thanx Ar.
Who Else Wanna Hurt Me??
If U Wanna Hurt Me, Tell Me First. So It Will Be Less Painful. Thanx.

2008-09-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hey Everybody. =)
Finally Recovered From Fever.
God! The First Day Of The Fasting Month And I'm Sick.
Really An Obstacle For Me This Fasting Month.
But For Now, Fever's Down, Cough Remains.
Damn. I Hate Coughing. It Really Hurts My Throat.
Well Just Forget About It. Haha.

Okie. Today I Went Out With Rasheed, Zul & My Younger Sister.
Proceed To Dhoby Ghaut To Find Zul's Things.
In The End, Nothing Was Bought. LOL.
Broke Fast By Drinking McDonald's Ice Lemon Tea.
Shared Among Us 4. We Don't Intend To Eat There Actually.
Then Off To City Hall. We Walked There.
Went To Peninsula To Buy My Stuff And At The Same Time, Zul Bought A TeeShirt.
After That We Went Long John To Eat. Haha.
I Can't Finish Up My Food. I Had No Appetite This Few Days. Haiz.
I Wonder Why. (-.-)
Me & My Sis Proceed To Wheelock To Meet Up Dan, Azmil, Sheq & Farhan.
Chill All The Way Till We Went Home.

2008-08-29T15:56:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey Hey.
Video Of My New Song Has Been Uploaded.
Do Check It Out Aitez.
Url : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yx4mERI989Y
Dont Forget To Comment & Rate It. Thankew. =)

2008-08-27T14:37:00.000+08:00

Sorry Guys For Not Posting For The Past Few Days.
Flu, Fever & Cough Is Killing Me! Haiz.
After The Phuket Trip, My Body Weaken.
Maybe Due To The Weather. So Cold.
Hehe.
Okie. Did U Notice Any Difference??
Yeah, My Blog Song Have Been Changed.
The Same Song Actually But Its So Called "Improvised".
So Do Listen Yeah. Originally Composed By Me. =D
I Recorded It This Evening At Ijam's Mini Studio A.k.a Sony BMG. LOL.
I Request Him On Playing The Keyboard For This Song.
Well Done Ijam! Credits To You, Mate. Haha.
Yesterday Is History. Tomorrow Is A Mystery. Today Is A Gift. That's Why Its Called "Present".
Okie Everyone. Let's Forget Bout The Past & Move On.
Today, Majority's Feeling Blues. Why Huh??
Hmmm. Dun Sad2 K. =))
Niwae, I Need To Go To Skool Tomorrow!
God! Please Wake Me Up At 6.30 am Can?? Thanx. =)
Been Absent For 2 Days Rdy.
No, Actually 1 Week Plus Cuz Of The Phuket Trip.
Okie. I Need Some Sleep.
So I'm Off!!.. TO LALA LAND!
Toodles Everyone!

2008-08-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
Hee. Im 19!! YAY!!
Thanx EVERYONE For The Birthday Wish! =))
APPRECIATE IT LOTS!

2008-08-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

Okie!!
I'm So OVER Her!!
Get It!!
Hope She's Happy With Her Life!!
Take Care!!

2008-08-16T10:22:00.000+08:00

Didnt Blog For The Past Few Days.
Been Bz. Haha. =))

There Are 2 Upcoming Occassion For Me.
First, My Birthday!! Hehe.
Secondly, Im Going Phuket For 4 Days 3 Nights.
Woohoo!! Enjoy Kape.
Go There Shopping Ar. Ape Lagik.
Actually The Phuket Trip Was Organized By The Company's Im Working For.
Coastes Is The Name Of The Outlet And Emerald Hill Group Is The Company.
So Yeah That's It.
Hmmm. No Plan For My Birthday.
But I Hope & Pray Its Gonna Be A Blast!! Haha.
Well, Gonna Miss You Guys For 4 Days.
Flight Time Will Be 6 AM On Monday.
3 Days From Now. Haha.

2008-08-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey Hey!! =]
Swimming Was Great!
Went To Jurong Swimming Complex Just Now.
Met Rasheed, Martin, Rauf, Zul, Hindra & Leng At Yishun MRT.
Later On Met Titi, Arep & His Friend At Jurong Swimming Complex.

First, We Went To The Lazy River.
We Went For At Least 3 Rounds Cuz We Were Lazy.
That's Why Its Called Lazy River. Its For People Like US Actually, NOT! Haha.
We Were Like Crazy-Madness. We Wrestled, Pulled Each Other Legs & The Best Part Was Martin Pulled Zul Shorts & Everyone Could See His "Tingy".
Damn!! That Was Today's Best Scene.
After That We Went To The Wavy Pool.
Dang. We Kept On Jumping & My Legs Were Tired. -.-
But What Kept My Eyes Opened Was This Girl In White & Pink Roxy Bikini.
She's So Damn Damn Hot+Cute+Pretty.
Well, Dream On KAI!! Haha.
Then, Rasheed, Martin, Zul & Suyanti Played The Slide.
The Rest Of Us Waited For Them Below.
Hindra, Rasheed & I Went For The Lazy River Again.
After A Short While, We Went To Change To Our Casual Clothings.
Went To Eat At Nearby KFC.
We Took Some Pictures Along The Way Home.
But I'm Kinda Tired To Upload Them.
Maybe Next Time Yaw. =))

2008-08-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

Me.

The Bois.

The Girls.

Yesterday Was A Blast And Yet Tiring. Went Out With Dan, Izz, Siti, Imah, Yazid, Ijam & Mil.
We Went To Raffles Place And Stood By Near One Raffles Quay At 6++.
It's Not That Crowded During That Time Though.
We Arrived There During The Nighthawks' Performance.
Damn. It Was AWESOME!!
I Wonder How They Trained So Well. LOL.
They Created A Heart Shape, Flying Towards Each Other Like They're Gonna Crash Or Something etc.
Around 7+ The Crowd Start To Gather For The Fireworks.
Then At 8, The Fireworks Began.
Dam Dam Doom, Bunyik Mercun. Haha.
Seriously, The Fireworks Go Doom, & Then Doom Doom, & Then DOOM DOOM DOOM!!
Okie. I'm Talking Crap. =]
After The Fireworks, We Went To Boat Quay To Chill.
It Was A Tiring Walk Seh. Adoi.
Nak Tercabot Sia My Leg.
Chill There For Awhile & Not Forgetting CAM-WHORING!
The Girls Wanna Take Pictures So Much.
Pecah Jugak Lens Aku. LOL.
Then We Proceed To Marina Square.
Met Rasheed, Martin, Zul, Alfian & One Of Their Friend Which I Didn't Know.
Talk For Awhile Cuz They Need To Go Off Early.
Dan's Friend Met Us At Around 11+.
Then We Chill There Till We Go Home.
We Can't Stop Making Jokes & Laugh To Kill Our Boredom.
Well, Took NR1 Home. And Its So Pathetic.
I'd Rather Take First Train Home Then Sit On That Bus.
But I Got No Choice Yeah. =]

Today Was A Tiring Day Too.
Damn. Go Out For 2 Days Consecutively.
Went To The Airport Today To Send My Cuzz Off.
She's Going To Norway For Further Studies.
Cool Ritez?? Haha.
How I Wish I Can Go There To Study Or Just Vacation. =))
Well, Nothing Much To Talk About Today.

2008-08-09T15:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! =))

And Happy National Day To Everyone!!

2008-08-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

Didnt Go Skool Today.
Due To Hangover. Haha.
Went To Drink Last Nitez At Partyworld.
That Will Be The Last Man!! *Swear Without Fingers Crossed*
Karaoke All The Way.
Drank To Drown All My Sorrows.
I Cant Help It.
The Most Weird Part Is That I Cried.
Maybe Because I Kept Something Hidden Deep Within Me.
Most Probably Is About HER.
While I Was Crying, I Called Out HER Name.
I Don't Know Why. Haiz.
I Like HER Too Much And That's The Fact.
But What I Expect In Return Is, Something Good.
In The End, I've Been Discriminated By HER.
Saying Im Not HER Type And She Told Me To Go To HELL.
Harsh Words Ritez. But Patience Is Virtue.
I Don't Have Any Grudges On HER.
I'm Still Patient And Still Waiting For The Day She'll Smile At Me.

Didnt Do Anything Much Today.
Just Chilling At Home.
The Plan To Play CS Was Ruined. Haha.
Not Fun La Lidat!! =P
Dah Semangat Nak Main Ramai2. Adoi. =))

*.Everyday, I Hope & Pray That You'll Be Mine Someday.*
- To A'***h.

2008-08-08T14:30:00.000+08:00

Its A Miracle Today. Haha.
Didnt Ride To School.
Road Tax Expired Ar Beb. =P
So I Took A Cab As I Was Running Late.
And It Means DAMN LATE.
Reached School At 11am. Went To Class.
Saw Her As I Was Climbing The Stairs.
Mangkok Seh Gue. Haha.
Then Went To The Canteen To Meet Up My Best Mates.
Chill For Awhile And Went Up To Class Again.
There's An Upcoming Project For SBM.
We Need To Set Up A Stall And Sell Stuffs.
I Plan To Make Something. But We Still In Need Of Suggestions.
Is There Anyone Who Is Kind Enough To Give Some Ideas?? =))
Give Some Good Ideas Aitez. No Nonsense Tingy Please.
Went Home With Zul And Rasheed.
Kecohrable In The Train Until Cannot Kecoh Anymore. Haha.
Cannot Carry Man. =D
Met Up With Martin Cuz He Wanted To Cut His Hair.

Going Partyworld Later To Meet My Colleagues.
Tomorrow's Gonna Be Fun.
Titi The Mak Nenek Planned To Play CS. =P

2008-08-07T13:10:00.000+08:00

Hello There. =))
Im So Dead Beat.
Finished School At 3pm Today.
Supposingly At 2pm.
But I Have Remedial Class For OSA Re-Test.
4 People Turned Up For The Remedial Class.
I Came Late For It Cuz I Did Some Role-Plays With Leng And Rasheed.
Dang. Step In To The Computer Lab. Switched On The Computer.
And Voala!, Finished The Paper Within 20 Mins. Haha.
Came Later, Finished Earlier. *winkz*
Went Home With Rasheed. He Waited For Me At The Nearby Block.
Pillion Him Home And Met Up Again After That.
I Met Him And Zul To Play CS!! Haha. Cool Or What?? =P

Saw Her In School Today. Walking Pass By Me.
Haiz. I Was Too Embarrassed To Face Her.
I Don't Have The Courage To Look At Her Anymore.
Its Not Because I Like Her; The Fact That I Still Do.
But Its Because I've Been Discriminated By Her. =/
Morale Of The Story: Don't Ever Like A Girl In Your School Unless You're A SOMEBODY.

I'm Damn Bored Ritez Now. And I Have Nothing Left To Say.
Well, I'll Be Posting Again Tomorrow. =))

2008-08-06T10:29:00.000+08:00

Hatiku Retak Seribu - xKai Rilekx

Sejauh Mana Harus Ku Berlari
Membuktikan Cinta Ku Pada Mu
Seandainya Kau Tidak Menerima
Hampalah Cinta Ku Ini.

Segala Dugaan Yang Melanda Hidupku
Ku Tempuhi Walau Pahitnya Bagiku
Demi Cinta Ku Sanggup Berkorban
Segalanya Untuk Mu Oh Sayang.

Kau Mengatakan Kepada Ku
Yang Ku Tidak Setaraf Dengan Mu
Hatiku Retak Seribu
Bila Mendengar Pengakuan Mu Itu.

Inikah Balasan Mu Terhadap Diriku
Setelah Kian Lama Ku Menyintai Mu
Walau Sekali Pun Kau Membenci Diri Ku
Cinta Ku Takkan Musnah.

Ku Sedar Siapakah Diri Ku Ini
Untuk Menyintai Diri Mu Oh Kekasih
Ku Hanyalah Insan Yang Kekurangan
Segalanya.

Aku Berdoa Agar Kau Bahagia
Di Samping Insan Yang Kau Cinta
Maafkanlah Aku Andai Ku Pernah
Wujud Di Dalam Hidup Mu.
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The Lyrics To The Song I Composed.
I Hope You Guys Appreciate It. =))

Kai Re-incarnated. =))

2008-08-06T08:32:00.000+08:00

Hello2. Kopi Dan Milo.
I'm Back For More Action.
My Old Blog's Still Not Deleted Yet.
I Kinda Forgot My Username And Password. Hahakz.

Well, Didn't Go School Today.
I Was Doing My Blog The Whole Nitez.
Kinda Tiring. Thought Of Not Sleeping Till I Go To School.
But In The End I Fell Asleep. -.-
So How's My Blog?? =))
Well, Its Just For The Time Being.
Gonna Make A New Background With A New Layout.
So, Just Wait & See Aitez. *winkz*

To That Particular Person.
I've Been Wanting To Say This To You.
Its Your Smile That Attracts Me.
You Didn't Even Give Me A Chance To Get To Know You.
How Am I Suppose To Like You For Who You Are??
Well, I'm Sorry If I Ever Exist In Your Life Before.
Its Not Wrong For Someone To Like That Particular Someone Ritez?
All I Wanted Is Just To Be Friend With You.
But I Ended Up Being Hated, Discriminated & Deleted.
You Know What I Mean.

I've Composed A Song About What I've Experienced Recently.
Its In Malay. So, Just Sit Back & Relax Aitez.
I Will Post It Up Soon.

*Treasure The One You Love, Or You'll Regret Once They're Gone*