3:57 PM
sorry for not blogging for a very long time.been feeling fcuked up and pissed off for the past few days.not about girl dis time.but BROTHERS.gosh. i dunno wats gonna happen next.all this SHIITS been going on and on.cant take it anymore.feel like venting my anger on someone. especially THEM.the first thing happened was my childhood friend, like a BROTHER to me, stabbed me from the back by breaking his promises.like wtf. 10 years somemore.been thinking and thinking. ive decided to stop contacting him.to me, promise is a promise. its like giving a huge responsibility to someone.i trust him but in the end he broke it.not only he broke my trust. but also the respect i have for him.and bcuz of tat, ive decided to break our brotherhood.u wanna noe the caused of it??well, i dont wanna elaborate it anymore.another thing happened too.this time im going to tell u his name. AZMIL!like wtf. he's someone who is really a two-headed snake MOFO!like's to talk COCK! can win the WORLD CUP sia!he's someone who takes someone's kindness for granted!the TWO-HEADED SNAKE part - he talks bad about someone in front of me. but behind my back, he talks bad about me.the talk COCK part - he said he wanted to buy KR last year november. november has past, he told me december. den he dragged till january. and now february ready. i advised him to collect his money and spend wisely so he can achieve his dream. but he dont wanna listen. U DESERVE IT ARSE-HOLE!! like my friend said, "tak mampu nk belik, jgn belik ar."the taking someone's kindness for granted - bcuz of him not getting his bike sooner or later, whenever me and my friends went out, i'll pillion him. so that everyone can enjoy together u see and obviously, SYMPATHY. but now wtf! after hearing his words from my friend, seriously i feel like punching his face sia. jgn sampai aku hilang sabar. aku hilang sabar, dunia kau gelap nanti.seriously ar. FCUK OFF!!
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11:56 PM
bored for the past 2 days.
sitting at home doing nth.
gosh. i need to find work man.
my wallet's running thin.
dah dapat duit, ape lagi. JOLLY AR BEB!!
prangai kentot sakz Kai. haha.
i cant wait for another month.
gonna take class 2a! wee~
super 4 spec III here i come!
ride with style baby, ride with style. *winkz*
olritez. gonna go out now.
toodles readers~~ ((=
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12:38 AM
Say Goodbye To 2008.
& Welcome. . .
2009!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
Wishing everyone will have a great year ahead.
Forget the past and move on.
Don't ever turn back. =D
As for me, I hope 2009 is gonna be a better year for me.
2008 was like hell. LOL!
Well, my only wish for this year is to have a gf.
And ya, I've found the girl that really captures my heart, can make me smile and happy.
But. . . I don't know whether she will accept me.
Hmmm. I'll just hope and pray that she will. =)
P.S : "I Only Want The Girl Named Farlia." =)
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11:46 PM
The Loneliness - Babyface Im sitting here thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again
Farlia,
I'm sorry for what I've said to you.
I know my words were harsh.
I'm really really sorry.
I really can't live without you.
Whenever I'm doing something, I kept thinking of you.
I just can't get you out of my head, Lia.
You are the only one who can make me smile, laugh and even cry.
I just don't wanna lose you.
I've promised you that I will love you and will never leave you.
I still kept to that promise.
All I wanted was you and your love.
My heart's still with you Lia.
I swear to God and everyone that my love for you is strong.
I Love You, Farlia.
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7:20 AM
went riding this morning.gosh. we didnt have a plan at all.every one was blurr, blank and whatever words u can describe.so we think hard and finally agreed to chill near Singapore Flyers.since we didnt go there often. haha.chill till 4am and went back to telok blangah.and continue chilling till 6am.no life ritez? of cuz la.late nitez, early morning, what can you possibly do man??everywhere we go was like a ghost town.ya. maybe one day, we can make friends with ghosts.well, it was meant to be a sarcastic remarks.okie. when we were on the way home, i NEARLY met with an ACCIDENT!sorry to use harsh words. but its really driving me MAD.effing taxi driver, dont even know how to drive.how can you possibly pass your TRAFFIC POLICE TEST???don't you know you need to keep a safe distance of at least 1 car gap??you were tailgating me, i'm changing my lane and you were impatient and overtake me.and you almost COST MY LIFE!!! bloody hell!!if MINOR ACCIDENT is okie, at least i can claim for the damages you've caused.but what if its a MAJOR ACCIDENT and took away someone's life??not one but two lives. TWO LIVES GOD DAMN IT!!its priceless you know. it can't even be bought.for goodness sake, use your GOD DAMN brain god has given to you.to all road users out there, if you are in a hurry and rushing for time, please drive safely.if you dont care about your life, at least think for others.don't tend to regret if something happened.i don't wanna lose someone closed to me again.its really heartbreaking you know.its not temporary but permanently gone.he didnt have the chance to live long. he was only 19.there's more for him to learn and explore.he met an accident because of a reckless driver driving a van.and he died on the spot.do you want that to happen in your life??i hope this will talk some sense into you guys.and to all road users, especially taxi drivers.
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3:02 PM
its been said and done.
u left me cold and alone out here.
and ur having fun outside.
u never will and never did appreciate what ive given you.
thanx for the drama and the games you played.
i thought ive finally can love and be loved.
but i was wrong again and again.
u destroyed the hopes and confidence within me.
thanx alot aitez. haiz.
ive gained nothing in the end.
emptiness filled me again.
gosh. 2008 is not my year.
and i dun tink 2009 will be a better year for me either.
oh man. well. i just gotta be strong.
i noe im really weak. someone please guide me. (:
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11:04 PM
You never fail to make me smile,
cheer me up when I'm down,
keeping me company every night.
You Know Who You Are. =) This Poem Is For You.
When I'm With You,Eternity Is A Step Away,My Love Continues To Grow,With Each Passing Day.This Treasure Of Love,I Cherish Within My Soul,How Much I Love You,You'll Never Really Know.You Bring A Joy To My Heart,I've Never Felt Before,With Each Touch Of Your Hand,I Love You More And More.Whenever We Say Goodbye,Whenever We Part,Know I Hold You Dearly,Deep Inside My Heart.So These Seven Words,I Pray You Hold Through,"Forever And Always,I Will Love You."Farlia,
I promise, I'll never break your heart. I won't make you cry. I may not be the best but i will do my best just for you. I'll cherish every moment I had with you. I'll treasure you more than anyone else do. I'll be there for you when you need me the most. I promise that I'll fulfill every promises I've given you. I just want you to know how much I love you. For once, please believe me.
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